I don’t feel well. With all the medications you have to take in order to make all of this happen, its no surprise. I don’t really have much of a choice but to acknowledge and move on. It’s hard not to jump to the “am I pregnant?” question with every little thing, but I have to force myself not to. Since I started this journey, I found an IUI support group on Facebook. I have to admit, sometimes I feel badly sitting back and watching so many women struggle with infertility. Wanting SO badly to see a second line in a test when there just doesn’t seem to be one visible to the naked eye. Don’t get me wrong, I get it. You can want something so badly that you can get “line eyes”, but there has to be a reality around it as well. Unfortunately, not every IUI is going to work and we have to accept that.
One of the best things that has happened as a result of the group is finding three amazing women: A, K and H (not sharing their real names to protect their anonymity). These three women have become an amazing support system for me. When I am feeling like I should test WAY TOO EARLY, I message them and beg them to tell me to snap out of it, and they all do. Its crazy because we have bonded over very different things and I really feel like I have made new friends. A is a total Disney nerd like me, and I am really confident that we will one day make plans to bring our future disney nerds to WDW and make it a trip. H is a horse girl and also lives in Atlanta. She knows everything about what I am going through bc we actually go to the same place and same doctor. Hopefully we will be able to meet for dinner soon! And finally K. K has the same kind of sarcastic humor as me. I love when we chat, bc she makes me feel like I am not the only jerk (in a good way) 🙂
The reason I am writing about this, is because ever since I moved to Atlanta, I have felt so alone. Making friends as an adult is hard, especially when people your age have families and you are doing everything you can to just hold on. It’s funny that this infertility journey has brought me to three girls whom I never would have met and I am so thrilled to be experiencing this with them.