I wrote a totally different blog post this morning at 5:45 am. Sparing all of the details, let’s just say I woke up to a scene that would have made Dexter cringe, so I emailed my doctor and asked what to do, and he said come in. So I wrote what I was thinking at that point and put it in “draft” just in case what I was thinking was somehow wrong. However, with what I was seeing and feeling, there was no way I was wrong.
Went in to Georgia Reproductive, and immediately saw Amy. She could tell I was uncomfortable, as the pain I was experiencing was pretty intense. We went into a conference room, and she sat there and talked to me while I felt like I was going to lose my entire inner-being. I love them there. Even with all that was going on, I was at ease. Hopped into a room with Dr. P and was ready to hear how my IVF cycle had failed.
I am still waiting for him to tell me I am out…and well he can’t. And no, it’s not because he isn’t smart. That man is a genius (a funny one at that). It’s because my body wasn’t telling him that. My cervix was completely closed and my uterine lining was thick and showed no signs of shedding. I had no visible new bleeding in my cervix and as far as he could tell, I am not having my cycle. I now understand those shows that the woman doesn’t know she is pregnant!! (My friend H TOTALLY knows what I am talking about) So confusing.
So I gave blood and walked out at least knowing that I wasn’t dying, and that my doctor and nurses were being as positive as they could be and I needed to follow suit. I am actually 4 days before a traditional blood test would be done, but considering the circumstances, we had to go ahead and do it. I’m not “not pregnant”, but I am not out of the water yet. So that is where I am leaving this post.
Wednesday we will know more. Stay tuned and let’s hope I don’t have to bring the other post out of drafts. Good vibes are definitely appreciated!!!