So we have officially started on the trial and it saved us quite a bit of money. It’s kind of surreal to actually be doing the whole IVF process. Since we did two medicated IUIs, I was prepared for shots and well it seems as if IVF is just IUI on “steroids” (no pun intended). Just more shots and more monitoring. I have been on Lupron for a few days and haven’t really felt much. It’s kind of surprising, considering I have been getting side effects from so many of the drugs…just not this one. The shots are the same as the ones before, just longer and more of them. I go back in to the office in 5 days for a baseline check to see how my ovaries are responding. Basically Lupron forces me into menopause. It prevents the ovaries from working and suppresses their activity. Again, the medication controls everything in my body. As I said in my last post, I have always had an issue with control, but this whole process has taught me so much about myself and taught me that control is something that nobody has.
I have a lot that is going to be changing in the next few weeks. Stuff that I can’t post on here just yet….but it is going to be pretty life changing. Life is ever evolving and I have been stuck for awhile. I have learned that it is ok to question the norm. I have learned it is ok to question everything that I am comfortable with. Questioning is ok.
In other world news, life goes on around trying to have a baby and Jesse just fond out he is going to be taking his Fit to Fight/Krav Maga black belt test in August. I am so proud of him and how he has bounced back from the shell he was two years ago. We just got back from his 6-month doctor appointment and he has gained 110 lbs in two years. To most people that would be terrifying. To Jesse that means he has has gained exactly what he weighed two years ago and is finally healthy.
We have also added another member, well two, to our family in Atlanta. Don’t panic…no more dogs!! We needed someone to help around the house, spend some time with the dogs and just help overall. I wanted to find someone who would stay on as a nanny once we got pregnant and had the baby(ies), and I found that person in E and her daughter D. E is a godsend. It is so awesome to have someone who I relate to, trust, and enjoy having in my life. Her daughter is a total sassy-pants and I can’t wait to have her around when we have kids. For some reason, knowing that I have someone who did this before makes me more at ease with the whole situation.
Our egg retrieval is scheduled for the end of July (7/30-8/1) and our transfer will be 3 days later. All I can do is keep my eye on the prize and enjoy our journey.At the end of the day, I am so lucky to be surrounded by friends and family who know who I am and what I want out of life. I look forward to the next few weeks.