When that is the first line you hear from your counselor, you know you are in the right place. Georgia Reproductive makes counseling for IVF mandatory, so we made an appointment to “get it over with”. J is not a huge fan of therapy, and well I think it has its place in treatment. Whether you are a fan or not, the consultation is a “must-do” so we went.
Let’s cut to the chase….he was awesome, and the hour flew by and was, well, awesome. We talked about everything. Why we were ok with where we were. The potential for becoming depressed through the process. The potential for not understanding the unknown. And at the end of it, I am pretty sure we all wanted to become BFFs. As we were walking out, even J said, “I feel like making something up, so we have to come back!”
Throughout this entire process, I think we have just had a different perspective. 2 1/2 years ago, we were just hoping J wouldn’t die, so to be looking at a next step in our life is a pretty incredible thing. I know that we haven’t gone through the lengthy fertility struggles many people have had, and maybe that is why I am not jaded. However, we have gone through one that is much worse than not being able to conceive a child the “normal” way. Jesse’s illness, health and well-being was such a focal point for so long and we were grasping for answers and in the end, grasping for his life. So while I don’t minimize peoples desire for a child, I think our past has made us step back and appreciate that we at least have a future…together.
We are on to a very exciting next step and that is the clinical trial. I did my final screening today and I will write about that in my next blog post. Let’s just say that it further solidified why I love where we go!!
BTW– to any readers…please check out the study at Georgia Reproductive, the info is here and there may be some cities close to you that are doing it: http://theivystudy.com/qualify.aspx…they are still looking for participants!